Friday, July 1, 2011

Fifteen

Hey ya'll. So I'm going to get personal here. I've never really done that before on here, and this is going to be really rambly and so not organized, but whatever...

So some of you may or may not know my age, but I'm fifteen. I've come to conclusion that being fifteen sucks. Some of my friends agree, some of them don't. But isn't being fifteen supposed to be one of the most exciting years of being a teenager? I guess in some ways it is, but in more ways.. it's not. Atleast in my opinion.

To be honest here, sometimes its all about boys, your friends, your parents, that seem to make my life miserable.


But being fifteen makes me want to be more independent. I want to be able to choose what I do with my life. For example, my curfew, which boys to like, how much fun I have with friends, etc. Even though those things may be ridiculous things to worry about, but it's just what seems important at the time.

I've definitely realized lately, that those things I said above are not all that important. Some of the most important things are the things like spending more time with family, being there for my friends, and the ones I love. And NOT worrying about what people think of me, and just being ME. Yeah, sometimes it sucks being the only in you're group of friends with divorced parents. Sometimes it sucks not being able to have a driver's license to go where ever you want when ever you want. Sometimes it sucks to think that nobody likes you.
But guess what?

LIFE GOES ON. :)

I'm not going to give up on life. I'm not going to let those ridiculous, not-so-important things take over me. psh. I'm better than that! I'm going to stop feeling bad for myself and focus on the happy things that happen in my life. I'm going to follow my dreams and let go of the past.


Being fifteen starts my sophomore year of high school which should be interesting, but hopefully a whole new experience for me. I want to be able to discover who I am, and not what other people think of me or what other people tell me I should be. I'm still a teenager, and I'm NOT even near being perfect.

I'm just a normal fifteen year old girl who only sometimes, just slightly, wishes to be SIXTEEN.

I don't really know what I'm saying, I'm just saying what I feel. This probably makes no sense, and has no point. Don't judge me. :) But thanks for reading anyways!
xo, Kaylee

P.S.- I don't own any of these pictures, and I'm not taking credit for them. I found them all on weheartit.com.

3 comments:

Kate said...

I felt the same way when I was 15. I thought that when I turned 16, my life would suddenly become so much better. Ha! Not so much. While the freedom of a license is great, it's not everything. There will come a day where you'll miss your parents being there with you. Truthfully, I've already started to miss it just a bit and I've only been 16 for a few months. Independence isn't all it's cracked up to be. Enjoy your parents. Your siblings. Your family. Someday you'll miss your parents driving you to the movies, taking you to school, or dropping you off at practice. 16 will come faster than you'll ever anticipate, dear. Enjoy being 15 while it lasts. It goes by fast.

Shelley said...

I'm fifteen too. I actually like this age, you don't have too many responsibilities yet, and still have your youth and freedom. Don't worry to much about all that stuff, just enjoy life as it is, and like you said, be yourself! Sixteen is only a year away. :)

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Eden said...

this is going to be a rather cliche response. i'm currently 22 years old, just finishing college, and i live over a thousand miles away from my family. my only advice to you is to enjoy every second of being a teenager. we spend so much time wishing we could be grown up, be independent, and not have to answer to anyone...but now...all i want to do is go live with my parents, have homecooked meals, and not have to pay bills.

don't get me wrong, i love being my age. i'm engaged to a wonderful boy, and i'm pumped for the future. my point is that being a kid is SO IMPORTANT. cherish it girl! :)

xox, eden